Attention Seeker or Hide and Seeker

I am only child and as far as attention goes -- i have been and continue to be the center of my parents universe --- i am also the center of thatha and aaya's center and definitely Sivappas!!!!!!

so for someone that gets so much attention -- i shy away from it when i recieve it from others --- growing up i hated the attention i got from the opposite sex -- this was especially hard when u are one of the very few well endowed girls in the whole school, where most girls had to stuff cotton down their shirts to make even a small dent. I totally hated it -- there were days when i actually tried taping them to my body but nothing worked... it was during these awkward days that i happened to meet A  --- i was 11 when i first met A , we started as friends --- and it took me three years to realize what A felt for me that too only after amma told me so .... so as far as attention goes i was and still continue to be well showered with it -- even though i have a million insecurities about myself ....  ....

Since i was feeling dumpy -- i was looking fro some sympathy and definitely some attention -- and he had the perfect words for me --- at some point of our conversation i said that if things didn't happen the way i wanted them to happen i said i was going to be single for the rest of my life and not bother with men anymore --- and PP , who claims he doesn't care for love or others -- said that he "would come into my life" not that he has departed -- so the words i feared were spoken --- they have been below the surface for a while now -- but having him say it hit me --- would do i do now ? he has been hinting for a while but i have always put up a brick wall every time he ventures there -- i have said things like "ur a good guy -- some lucky girl will be blessed to have u in her life" " u will definitely fall in love" " if i was single i would totally be with you" --- i am partly to blame -- am I not ? There is no way i am going to stop talking to PP -- cos he's my friend ---and the crazy thing is even after him spelling it out for me things aren't awkward between us --

Lets see .. its not time to hide yet!